I am saying goodbye to the pain the suffering the inability to have what I need. I am always denied everything that makes me happy. I can not get decent health care. I am unable to be able to live in Europe which would solve the majority of my problems. I need safety and need medical care but that is not a fundamental right in America. I can not even afford to get on an ankle monitor as I am too poor. I can not even have someone that loves me in America. I get played with for 6+ months by a person in Finland and no one does anything to help. People are too fucking self-conceited to actually help someone in need. I wish I could be locked up in a prison cell and happy. I wish I could be like those on the show 60 Days In as they have it made and get to experience what I want. I can not get back to Finland where I am the happiest I had ever been in years. Is there anyone in this world who wants me.