I was never blessed with the luck of being a European citizen. I also was not blessed with where I wish I was born. I am stuck in a situation I wish I could get out of. Another day of pain goes by and the tears stream down my face. I wish that I could have the chance to become a European resident. I wish I could get a residence permit to live in Finland as I felt it was the most perfect country to be in. I felt love by someone special for the first time in over 6 years. I miss the country deeply and the culture and I loved how quiet overall the country was. Now I just sit and wait for an opportunity to present itself for me to finally leave the USA for good. Imagine falling in love with someone that means the world to you and having to be so far away. I am trying to raise funds to go back to Finland. My health felt more alive when I was abroad. My only hopes that I have someone willing to marry me abroad as this is the only way my dream will come true to get to Europe and be a resident of said country. I want my opportunity and luck to finally be on my side. I am not looking forward to another quarter of college as its not going to make my dreams a reality. What good is a 4.0 GPA and another piece of toilet paper going to do for me. Education does not open doors for some people only the rich get to accomplish their dreams. The American dream for me is to finally leave this place behind. I deserve better healthcare and I deserve happiness. Is there so much to ask for to be able to have better healthcare to heal from the damages that I go thru. I hope that this person I met will actually marry me as then a new chapter in my life can begin. I hate having to rely on someone else.